Questions of Science

Come up to meet you and tell you I’m sorry. You don’t know how lovely you are. I had to find you and tell you I need you and tell you I set you apart. Tell me your secrets, ask me your questions. Oh, let’s go back to the start. Runnin’ in circles and chasin' our tails, heads on the science apart.

Nobody said it was easy. It’s such a shame for us to part. Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard. Oh, take me back to the start.

This song always makes me cry, but that's the mood I am in this morning. I am having a really hard day and it is only nine o'clock in the morning.

It is so strange to me how it happens, but you know how you think you are over something and then you are faced with it again and it lashes back to bite you?

I had lost touch with one of my friends - not total touch, though. I guess I would say we lost touch as much as any two people that live far apart. But we still maintained our friendship or so I thought. When I got married in May, I asked this person to come and celebrate with us. I never got a response back and it hurt a little bit, but I didn't hold it against her. Well, she just recently got married and I never even heard from her. That really broke my heart. I mean, I wasn't expecting to be a part of the wedding or anything but to at least be told. I tried to be understanding - you can't invite everyone you know to a wedding and I thought that I was over it; until I saw her today. And she looks so happy and I long to be happy for her. But I almost lost it and cried. I wouldn't even know what to say if I spoke to her.

On top of that, I got some really bad news last night. When do you get to that point where you just can't do it alone anymore?

I need a piano. Days like this are hard to survive without a piano and my flute just doesn't do my mood justice. The flute is more inclined to give me a headache on a day like today when the piano can easily adjust to mood. A piano would fit really well in our house; however, we can't afford to buy one. I would love to inherit my mother's piano, but I have never really asked her about it and getting it here would be a little problematic. We would have to rent a truck.

I just ate lunch and that always makes me feel better. And I just ordered some of my favorite Christmas music by Wyndham Hills and Manheim Steamroller. And the weather is beautiful. This just reminds me that I should be relying on God and not focusing on how this other person hurt me.

I am supposed to have Bible study tonight with two other girls from seminary, but we haven't met in over a month. So I wonder if we are going to meet tonight? If not, I should go rollerblading or running. Although, I guess it gets too dark too fast at night to do that. . .